I haven't blogged for over a year...and boy what a year it's been!! Lydia turned 3 in July and continues to amaze me every day. However I'd like to personally inflict harm and the person who dubbed the phrase "terrible 2's"...they've got nothing on 3!!! However challenging she may be she is the brightest light in my life. In September she started preschool at First Lutheran and she loves it. She always has fun stories to tell and loves talking about her friends. She got to be cinderella for for Halloween and my little princess looked and played the role well. In December my mother in law treated our family to a trip to Disneyland. The week we were there we had 1 day of sunshine and then California decided it was due for some record rainfall! Lydia was totally content jumping in mud puddles and making wishes in every fountain she could find. In January my mother in law treated my mom and I to a trip to Hawaii! We had a wonderful time and it was a trip I will cherish forever. I've been so lucky to live the life I have for the past 3 years and the gift of my amazing little girl.
But Lydia and I are beginning a new chapter in our lives. My marriage is over and it's time for Lydia and I to discover who we are as a family. Right now we are dealing with a lot of sadness and confusion. I love my husband more than words can explain but those things have to work both ways. Right now it's hard...right now we do a lot of crying and I thank the Lord for zanax!! I have the most outstanding family and friends who are there for me. We will get thru this...hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel but what doesn't kill us makes us stronger, right??
"When we live with resentment toward another our hearts close down. Letting go of our resentment frees us from placing blame on them and allows us to look toward ourself for peace."
